i want something that's purer than the water

friday passed. weather held me back.

saturday came. i didn't really feel as good as i did on friday. but i went ahead. and now i failed.

i guess failure is a part of life and we have to come out of it stronger.

i'll publish this the day i finally pass FHT. for now i'll be a phantom blogger.

the only person i have to overcome is myself.

the only things i have to overcome are my bad habits
sloth
complacency/ carelessness
hesitance
playfulness

the day i become better than myself is the day i've won.

and now, it's time to start working to win. one step at a time.

ORA invitational 2007

i got cut off in the middle of blogging the last post about national day. and this post won't go up until friday as well...which means 2 days! FHT retest..tomorrow will be systems mugging time until tuition.. no compromises!

after months of not touching a volleyball, i actually managed to survive playing from 2-7pm! granted, it wasn't non-stop but match situations are much more mentally and physically demanding.. :x not excuses.

it was good catching up with some of my team mates, having fun playing vball again and pigging out on the free food! thanks to ORA =) for catering the lovely buffet, the cheesecake, eclairs, spring roll, crystal bao 水晶包, fried mee siam style bee hoon, chicken drumlets were super good! so much for losing weight..but i think i played enough to make up for it xD except i ate so much right after playing and after not having a proper lunch that i felt like vomiting after that.. too much cheesecake? anyway the best reward was the food <33 i think i listed all the food except the fried wantons, which i'm sure were yummy too. but the shirt and cute vball dangly thing (pingpong ball decorated as a vball..lol.) were lovely too. the games were tiring and very fun (in a summarised form) although they made me realise how much of a noob i am in playing..and how much more i can improve.

anyway the loveliest of all were my teammates! hahaa it was fun talking and catching up, even though they were all talking about universities, scholarships and admissions. it seems to be almost all girls talk about in general these days when they make small talk..which makes me feel rather lacking, because i haven't thought about all those! everyone assumes i'd be a pilot, and it's a very viable option, it makes me happy to fly..but i guess there are other things in life i want to achieve as well. shrugs. and these are things i haven't properly thought about, like what i want to study and where it will take me! i mean, flying is an education, but it's not a university educable subject? if there's such a word.

tired. but happy (: haha. flight prep!

i'm not supposed to be blogging until friday because i want that last post there to serve as a subconscious reminder of what i've left to accomplish! (so i shall publish this on friday) unfortunately, i still haven't gotten rid of the habit of blogging in the wee hours of the morning.. since i think this is the best time to reflect, when it's all quiet, and it's just you and the song playing on your media player. ok rewind, it's all quiet until the screeching of car tires bring you back to reality momentarily.

shall leave flight stuff alone until friday.

i'd like to say we'll all bounce back, no matter how long it takes!

the past week was school for one day, FHT1, and national day celebrations! which was rather fun.. followed by slacking and family stuff for the rest of the week until today (or rather, yesterday) when i actually started to do work =D thankfully. summary done.

national day celebrations: i guess this was the last time we'd be allowed to get crazy-high in a long while and i totally enjoyed it! girlfriends <33
i was glad however that it was really dark, so extent of embarassment decreased and extent of me letting go increased =)
i guess we take whatever chances we get, and make the most of them!
my real reason behind all the screaming and going 'mad' was more to destress and get my angst about flight out of my system than about national day. really needed the screaming and the tiring myself out! so i was fine in much shorter time than i expected.
played captain's ball in the afternoon before getting high, really achieved my goal of exhausting myself =) i think i bled from getting whacked in the nose by some huge dude. but it didn't really hurt, so i was like wth, whine abit then alright! we're back on track. anyway, i'm not even sure if it was my blood or his, because i couldn't feel much pain? except a slight blood smell.. shrugs.

CAA-OG, Finals

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0900 Hrs

ignition system

whee! i wasn't angsty today =)

and we had a nice sorta class swensen's trip. i think i should go running tomorrow.. because of the large amount of calories i've consumed today! AND i didn't exercise today..

anyway my eyes are tired, but i don't really feel tired now. i think it's because i just rearranged the ignition system to my liking! it's really fun and fascinating and i shouldn't be awake now because i have to fly tomorrow.. oops XD

magnetos are fascinating! and the application of physics to real-life subjects that are so close to heart is simply, lovelyy~ did i mention my class blog template makes me feel slightly happier whenever i look at it?? random piece of unnecessary information =D

actually, i didn't really study much systems today.. thanks to swensen's trip. but it's not regretted =) nice break and nice food and nice company. worth it. except the calories and fats and sugars.. ;P i scream for ice cream!

ok that's all i have to share. ignition system has been understood and arranged, all systems will be memorised by tomorrow! then i get to learn fun random facts and read my ratings book =P

good weather today please. =)