eye bagged

another late night! this is the first time i'm blogging on my lappy, in hall! and it's only because my daddy's arriving soon to pick me home.. haha yes crazy hours.

glad i went for mini-class-gathering today and met up with people i haven't seen in quite awhile! it also put things in perspective: how much harder i have to work to be as pro as math-whizzes.. i wonder how they get there. but the thing that struck me today was what a senior said, and how the mindsets are so different!

"You don't need to take all the time they give you during the tests. It's definitely enough (to do all the questions you actually know how to do)."

The moment i realised that was what was meant, i wanted to burst out laughing! ok i think yh did.. because it's so different from what we're used to, i.e. taking up all the time and being able to do all the questions! i'd never want to convert to the above-mentioned mindset because it's so, well, for lack of a better word, complacent! It feels like you're not giving it your best shot, because the best guarantee of your grades is to get full marks.. seem elitist? even more ironic that it was a dean-lister talking.. but i guess because it's a bell-curve, that point-of-view can be understood! still, i can't get my mind around that. Quite irritated about my essay getting a B.. need to start working on the second essay after midterms are done! and plan like study time per module per week apart from what i need to do/submit.. i want to be better!!

then again more stuff needs to be settled too =) uni life is quite interesting. esp hall! i think without hall i'd probably be bored OR have found a different way to occupy my time. need an external cca! find me one or hope one drops in my lap (quite hard). rawr.

back here while mugging! and there's a bunch of stuff to think about. haha but i've been putting it off forever because it isn't very happy! i shall set a day to run off into the wilderness that is uni campus, find a spot alone (although that's kinda freaky coz weird people might pop out too) and make my decisions. everything's been pushed back coz of my indecisiveness and that rather makes me irritated because i feel like i can't commit myself to anything! why was i made responsible to this degree?! if i were slightly more frivolous, i'd have just chionged everything and ignored the consequences.

on a different note, staying home from hall makes me realise how much time i actually waste! then again this is the holidays, and there are no classes.. so i guess frames of reference don't really match huh. inertial frames of reference are where Newton's first law can be applied. studying today wasn't very nice either. i feel distracted! plus they just informed us of the change in c programming midterms - it's one day earlier! boo. need to reschedule.

somehow the mundaneity of life and the myriad things that keep cropping up keeps me (for the moment) contentedly preoccupied from actually directing my time purposefully. laugh. or not? =) smile because you never know who might be falling in love with your smile?! ROFL. loser.

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wow i haven't blogged in more than a month! and these days have been really full of activities.. if you made me try to recall them, i'd probably take an extremely long time! uni life so far has been BUSY! like extremely. the good thing is we finally have sports trainings, without a coach though.. still, it's been fun staying in hall and filling my time with studies and random stuff! interactions with people are really cool too. i need to be more extroverted! sometimes i just clam up, randomly!

nowadays sleeping at 5am isn't really such a big deal anymore.. i did it 3 days in a row once, so you can probably guess how horrible my eye bags and dark circles are. should probably get something to remove them :S trying to manage my time more properly now so i should be able to sleep at more normal times.

i'm blogging because i'm finally home for the week, and i'm going to stay home this whole week to study for midterms! hahaa =) i hope the plan works. but maybe i'll go back to stay one day when i have class. we'll see.

what exciting stuff happened this week (since it's still saturday).. hm. yesterday was RH concert bash! it was quite amusing to see people from hall getting drunk or wasted, although watching them puke isn't very nice. you kinda feel bad for them while thinking that they are seriously noob! we went dblO. and i realised clubbing is fun if you're with happy friends! missed the games and activities part of bash tho, coz i'm in marketing comm and we had to stand outside to man the gates and sell tix. rawr i kinda wanted to see the games. oh well. i sorta broke my rule to not drink except at home! would say that "rules are meant to be broken" but i think it's more like i've changed abit and i know mys limits better!

the first time clubbing, it wasn't good to drink because i hadn't drunk in quite awhile so i didn't know my own limits! and after usp d&d i didn't feel like spending (because i'm extremely broke). but last night there was a free drink! argh we didn't know the coupons were only valid until 10pm.. as marketing comm, we had a whole stack left! what a waste. should have changed jugs dammit. =( anyway it was better because i knew my limits after drinking at home! and dancing was fun after 1am, when the songs got better. they played funny but dance-able stuff, very old school - nsync, britney, maroon5! quite amusing.

experience was eye-opening though. we saw alot of couples groping each other and making out like mad in random spots (not even the dark spots), like in the middle of the dance floor also! but the irritating thing was that when we were dancing with a group of hall people, some guys came and tried to get closer and closer.. urgh. luckily we noticed that they weren't from our hall! super annoying.. they refused to go away! and when they finally did, it was only to take a break before returning. zz. so had to keep a constant lookout. one guy kept trying to come closer to me! i felt like smacking him but it was public place and i haven't learnt taekwondo yet =( shouldn't pick fights. yup. so we made our circle tighter! the smoke was quite cool =)

after that we went to fongseng for supper (thanks to ryan who lives in pgp). grr. and i ended up sleeping at 5+! because it was 4+ when we got back from milo dinosaur without ice =D and i had to bathe and pack to come back. hmm bad thing about alcohol is it's fattening!!! :S and this week i might not run as much! luckily i brought the shoes back.

RH concert is soon! marketing comm's work is almost complete (phew). either way, this week i'm just gonna mug. gotta come up with a study plan! =)