during chem pract!

waha. so weird, i'm blogging on my own blog last... haha these days have been full of ups and downs...though mostly downs. I've been kinda depressed for awhile = a day or two but am back and better than ever now!

Screwed up my only chance to get into the team, did chao lousily for chem test -> kena scolded my mom >< every cloud has a silver lining... miss my old friends but am getting on well with my new ones :) not to the same extent, yet. i hope. Xp

WAKE UP!

haha that has kind of been what i'm mentally shouting at myself all the time. and while i've been sleeping later now, i feel like i'm accomplishing more. lol. sleep is inversely proportional to amount of things accomplished until the ceiling is reached. :) haha kinda miss my inspirations to be lame, wacky and who bring out my mischievous streak. hopefully i'll find new ones :P

April Fool's is on Saturday! how sad is that? i should plan a prank to play on my fellow cca-mates but i don't know them well... oh no our chao zai prank tradition of one year is going to fade away >< bomb la. XD just remembering it gives me a sense of satisfaction :) wahahahaa. i shld consult my prank partner :P and take it a step at a time! see first lorh XD

you gotta luv it XD

i hate running, but i love its results (+ the results of going to the gym and working your abs!!) i can see the two lines <333>< they look gross on girls :)

tone~tone~tone~~

you win some, you lose some

Today seemed to be chiong PT day, again. Wednesdays always seem liddat to me ^^" coz i have PE, den squash training...which i ponned today ><

Ran 4 rounds for PE, 2 rounds per set and did a total of 26 IPUs, in two sets and went gymming xD there goes my goal of getting full marks for PFT Xp hahaa. Den ran 4-5 rounds on the outermost lane of the track after school, and went gym again. :P met alot of classmates there.

haha today was so eventful :) was dragged along to go squash trg even tho i wanted to go yck and support juniors! >< Staff Team Building Session!!! almost fainted on the spot... angie commented that we ought to write into the newspapers to complain about the inconvenience, haha but it was just a joke XD On the topic of team building sessions, rg teachers have team building sessions too! caught them koping the school courts once :P haha

so no squash today, but alot of pt...shall go and play tmr... :P

Didnt feel like going home... so decided to wait for jeanette... how said she was done... but made us wait for so long, angie managed to eat an entire ice cream (the roadside stall block of icecream), and go to the toilet. and still have time to stone... what just cross the bridge and she wld reach... grr :P i think standing around waiting is more tiring than running. XD but that's just moi.

but for fun, we hopped on the first train that came and went one station down to Khatib! where jeanette treated us to bubble tea and New York Pizza (some new pizza place there with pizza burgers :) not bad lehh ) and we hung out at NTUC. lol. what did you expect from HDB neighbourhood stores? hahaha. ><

What was productive today: PT, spending time with Jeanette and Angie

What was not so good: escaping from the other squashies ><

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away...

To state the obvious, it's Sunday.

The day before school reopens.

The day before the monotony and humdrum

of our daily lives return.

It is time to prepare for the reboot.

But first i shall reflect on yesterday,

when all my troubles seemed so far away...

Now it looks as though they’re here to stay

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Saturday, the first International Physics Olympiad Student Liaison Officer (IPhO SLO) Training was held. I wonder now what made me sign up in the first place... now it seems too real, too tangible and i guess, i'm afraid of screwing up. Being The Singapore Ambassador is an honour, and a helluva job! Now i don't know if i can 'step up to the plate' and be that person to comfort, eoncourage and boost the spirit of my team, if i can communicate with them (assuming they don't speak english) or if i can leave them with good memories of our country. How depressing. Even with the free T-shirt we were given (with more to come) and free food that we partook of, i'm wondering if i made the right decision signing up for this event and going for the training instead of getting to know my OG better through OG outing.

Communication is one of the key elements of networking, of life. Today, i was ordering roti prata and the Indian uncle couldn't understand english, so he mixed up my order but my dad came to the rescue. Even ordering food from someone who has had more contact with Singaporeans is a chore when we don't speak enough of the same language is a chore. What more someone from another country who doesn't even use a similar language? The gravity of the situation was further impressed on me and now, i'm not sure anymore... I guess if i want to back out i should do so quickly and give someone else a chance... Even though they said they are interviewing more people and could cut some of us, and hence the possibility of me getting in is greatly reduced, what if i got in?

Should I stay or should I go?

Oh...

Yesterday,

all my troubles seemed so far away...

I LOVE POOL <3333

Whee! went out for the whole day today! I'm super duper full liao... told my mom i dunneed to eat brekkie and lunch tmr and she said "today and tomorrow you shen me gua ge (got wad link)?" heh!! :S how well she understands me and my tummy :D

Program Schedule 15032006

0830 Woke up. Did normal after-waking-up stuff.
0910 Went out for brekkie.
( Received call at 0930:
P2: Waaa where are you?! my bus moved so fast i'm there already!! hehe...
Me: -.-" hehe... i'm still eating... )
0940 Set off for Jurong East.
1000 Reached JE but realised... no money!! >< where is the atm?!
1010 Queueing up to get in.
1120 Me: Siann.... so many ppl... and i cant do anything anymore... :S
P2: But so wasted. Skate a few rounds more?
1230 Me: Eh wanna go play pool?
P2: ok!
1240 Moved to Kpool next door. had fun!! haha for a first-timer my performance was good :P
Beginner's luck maaa XD
1440 Score -- Me 2 : 3 P2
1445 FOODD!!!! :S
1515 Waahhh so hott!! -.- why we didnt take shuttle to IMM?! Lol still must jump over the
fence between the road XP
1720 After shopping at Daiso -Always $2! for so long... "Shuttle queue so long... :\ Let's walk la!"
5 mins of torture...

After that, went to angie's house for steamboat! XD YumYUmYUMMM! :D:D:D:D and on the way managed to pull a stupid stunt... while waiting for them to pick me up from taxi stand... i fell, no more like rolled -.- over the seat... But it was ROUND k! who makes round seats?!

-END OF AN EVENTFUL, NON-HW PRODUCTIVE DAY-

Whee!

^^

Unlive the Day

i hope that no squasher who will take this the wrong way sees this... -.-"

Today's training was kns. Go all the way to kallang to slack around for 2 hrs. Pls la... haha budden coz i was bored decided to accompany junx for awhile after training as she waited for her "hotdate" to arrive. lol everyone who goes out has a hot date anyway :P i'm just being nice! Den got the shock of my life... Team outfit costs $70?! siao arhhh. i wouldn't waste that much money on clothes. and i bet it's just one shirt and one shorts (thankfully no skirt...haha) Maybe if i strike 4D i will go and buy (=never since i don't buy 4D anyways) haha.

Now i can't remember where i left off the last time so wdv. I miss RG i realli do... stupid rj is so big and has NO courts at all... sianzz... but i guess it's fun to meet new ppl :) haha alot of ppl comment that our og is so bonded :P in a way i guess that's true since we still meet at Z'cove and chat once in a while, which is way better than other ogs :) Hannar R0X0rz and im not just posting this coz i joined the og blog a few minutes ago ok. hahahaa. we should probably hang out more and get to know each other :D "unofficial og dinner at macs" was super funny! and i saw different sides to alot of people so we should just go somewhere sit down and chat/stone and play stupid games/cards. hee. ^^

As someone said, 1/8 of JC life has passed... changing class now would be extremely weird... Granted, it has only been 2 months yet the class bonds should be more or less there even with all the transfers. Yet, there are situations whereby you've known some people for years, but you've never really gotten to know them? Uber sad case...and guilty as charged ><

dilemmas give me migraines

Guess i'm the sort of person that waits for the boat to reach the bridge and straighten itself out, if it doesn't then i would just bang it straight or leave it slightly crooked. Is this a good attitude to have? I doubt so...

Eeeeeeeeeeeeee ><>

randomness is essential. otherwise life would be boring.

just hope people can follow when you go off tangent :)

RE-Vive!

so. it's been almost a year. exactly 10 months, 13 days since i've last visited this blog XD haha! just realised Revive is like Re- "vive", which means "live or life" in quite a few languages. haha! random fact.

So why? well... coz i've broken my long no-blog-surfing-rule, due to boredom and coz i feel like my command of the english language has dropped. Alot. jk!

Have alot of things to say... but i can't really express them. I don't want to let them out. I can't seem to feel the passion anymore. These days, i'm kind of wondering what drives me? Sometimes, i feel like i'm wearing a mask. Sure, i'm kind of happy... i can laugh, smile and joke around. But i can't help but feel like i don't belong. i'm just empty space, floating in a jello-like medium, trying to move but i can't make it... haha cmi! knew abbrv learnt :

On a (somehow) related note: Someone commented that i have mpd (multiple personality disorder)...

"Multiple personality disorder (MPD) is a psychiatric disorder characterized by having at least one "alter" personality that controls behavior. The "alters" are said to occur spontaneously and involuntarily, and function more or less independently of each other. The unity of consciousness, by which we identify our selves, is said to be absent in MPD. Another symptom of MPD is significant amnesia which can't be explained by ordinary forgetfulness."

found out that it is now labelled as dissociative identity disorder (did, as in did i do it?! lol ;P)

"A dissociative disorder in which two or more distinct conscious personalities alternately prevail in the same person, without any personality being aware of the other; typically a dubious diagnosis. "

My personal opinion is that everyone is rather...contrary at times, i.e. we show different facets of ourselves to different people we know. Do you think it's ever possible to know someone entirely? To know them inside out such that you are able to predict their every move? I think not... even if you have lived with them for years...even if you think you know all about your loved one...i doubt it's possible. Similarly, i question the existence of soulmates. Even if they exist, how do you know where they are or that they belong to you? Yet we can't really doubt that kindred spirits exist(people you just click with)... Is this a result of living in the same habitat for so long that everyone's mannerisms, habits, etc. become so alike?

lol. weirdness... just thinking about a topic transports me into a totally different dimension. anyways. DID. But first i shall reflect on my transition into JC, my OG, my class, etc. Guess i'm totally out of it today. my thoughts seem not to link but forget it, it's my blog anyways :P

Transition in JC was... weird, esp since i was in a single sex school for 10 years... haha, seeing people reuniting with old classmates makes me kind of jealous :\ and well, what's there to lamet? haha i'll just never send my kids to single sex primary schools ( if i have children...it's so far away) Yeah, and interacting with guys was weird at first... haha, they were like an alien species until i managed to convince myself that guys are just like girls but they need to attempt to think and act like they are manly besides the physiological differences. XD Orientation and O2 were ok? hehe i shant elaborate.

Anyways... on the topic of classes, i miss 413 loads ><><)! Anyways, i still miss 413 -- But it's not so bad... you're only the best i ever had... [Vertical Horizon: Best I ever Had] how paradoxical is that? It's not like i dislike my class...i think i'd be quite sad if i had to leave it ( and i probably will because of the timetable and syfc :[ ) haha but won't anyone love their class more if they had people they could just click with like *snap*? Perhaps my memory is failing me (DID!) maybe 413 took longer to click than i remember, maybe it's just that the 2 years together as a class were so memorable and fun only for me... [tbc...coz mommy is calling. hee XP)

[lalala~ i shall continue this at a later date? maybe one year later... kidding :P but it's a possibility! hahaha]