Funk
noun
1.	a state of nervous depression; "he was in a funk"

and you bleed just to know you're alive.

haha i know i'm alive. otherwise i wouldn't feel so sian. after chem spa today, and while waiting for tuition to start, it just hit me like an irrepressible wave. single bar of snickers crunch alleviated it momentarily. and now it's back. don't ask me why i'm sian, i think i'm just tired. i need sleep otherwise will die for flight tomorrow. oh look at the time, somehow i have to fit in 10 hours of sleep between now and tomorrow afternoon. what a challenge.

waiting on the world to change never works. you have to change your perspective. it's just the way to go.