erasing the indelible pencil marks

I was thinking about how erasers work, and how i wanted to have a life eraser or something, during physics tuition. probably because i was rubbing a whole lot of wrong workings and answers out, so much that there was probably an entire pile of eraser rubbings on the table if i pushed them together.

An eraser rubs out the marks you make on a blank piece or printed sheet of paper so that it's clean again. Yet while trying to remove the mistakes, the eraser wears down until in the end, it's gone. Isn't that rather like life? We try to erase the mistakes we made, while unknowingly removing, using up more and more of ourselves until we're gone. And all that's left is a blank piece of paper, maybe with little holes scattered over the page. Is it worth it then, to try and get rid of all the marks made to return to a blank sheet of paper again, albeit worn and tattered? It's probably better to just file that sheet away, and get a fresh sheet of paper to start over so that you can refer to all the errors you've made before, and try not to let history repeat itself.

people never know how great an impact the little things they do have on you. in the end, self-reliance is probably the most constant but sometimes, you do need people to talk to instead of carrying the burdens alone.

i like intellectual discussions :) and contemplating life issues.

ponned ticketing today. 'oops.' but RT oral exam is more important because it's on saturday! i hope i don't get murdered.