unexpected relief
my dad collected the PPL yesterday! it's PRETTY :D
and today, was A-levels results day.
i could barely sleep last night, every few hours i'd start and wake up before making myself return to sleep.. and i think today's been quite stressful and emotional for everybody. that's why i'm rather tired right now! but cannot, life moves on, and i have to prepare for piano exam by completing my homework for tomorrow.
wore school uniform to work and then to collect results today! haha fine, it was rather extra, but i felt like wearing it. after all, it should be the last time i'll be wearing it to school ever.. should have carried backpack. anyway, i got the customary remarks: "eh, you come wrong place! here not RJ!" hahaa but whatever. i wasn't supposed to be at work, but i couldn't sleep well anyway, decided to just go and earn some cash for slacking around.. which is really what i did from 8.30 to 12.. sit around, stoned, tried to sleep, got nervous and moved around, talk rubbish, help abit and get super super nervous again! vicious cycle. the only times i really stopped thinking about it was when i was answering the phone from 12 - 1 by myself. until it was almost 1 and the uncle continued talking for super long.. but it's quite nice to help people (:
all the anxiety that was suppressed came back throughout deciding where to go for lunch, ending up at s11, refusing to eat in case i puke when i get results, and buying chocolate peach milk tea with egg pudding! the bubble tea was in case i got too hungry for my own good, then gastric = ggxx. but i couldn't finish it! it was nice at first, but as we neared the gates, i couldn't down anymore and there was about half left.. continued angsting and whining all the way to hall. refused to take results so i took them last i think.. >< i almost made myself cry and puke before taking results! on the mentality that if i do it now, i won't do it later.. but it turned out to be unneccessary.
i don't like it when friends or classmates are sad.. because then you feel super sad with and for them :( even if you should be happy, somehow, it just doesn't feel right to be happy. and after taking results, i was just stoned! anyway, as expected, people dispersed after results. either to join other friends, or to get away from other people they don't want to talk to. actually i feel like i could possibly get rather teary now :( argh. nvm. so it ended up as just a few of us eating together, and then people left one by one! so decided to go home after wandering around popular for awhile, except that my mom finally returned my call and we went to meet my dad for dinner!
hmm that sums up the not-so-eventful-after-As. but i guess it's best spent as family time, because your family provides the best support.. usually. better get down to work!
and today, was A-levels results day.
i could barely sleep last night, every few hours i'd start and wake up before making myself return to sleep.. and i think today's been quite stressful and emotional for everybody. that's why i'm rather tired right now! but cannot, life moves on, and i have to prepare for piano exam by completing my homework for tomorrow.
wore school uniform to work and then to collect results today! haha fine, it was rather extra, but i felt like wearing it. after all, it should be the last time i'll be wearing it to school ever.. should have carried backpack. anyway, i got the customary remarks: "eh, you come wrong place! here not RJ!" hahaa but whatever. i wasn't supposed to be at work, but i couldn't sleep well anyway, decided to just go and earn some cash for slacking around.. which is really what i did from 8.30 to 12.. sit around, stoned, tried to sleep, got nervous and moved around, talk rubbish, help abit and get super super nervous again! vicious cycle. the only times i really stopped thinking about it was when i was answering the phone from 12 - 1 by myself. until it was almost 1 and the uncle continued talking for super long.. but it's quite nice to help people (:
all the anxiety that was suppressed came back throughout deciding where to go for lunch, ending up at s11, refusing to eat in case i puke when i get results, and buying chocolate peach milk tea with egg pudding! the bubble tea was in case i got too hungry for my own good, then gastric = ggxx. but i couldn't finish it! it was nice at first, but as we neared the gates, i couldn't down anymore and there was about half left.. continued angsting and whining all the way to hall. refused to take results so i took them last i think.. >< i almost made myself cry and puke before taking results! on the mentality that if i do it now, i won't do it later.. but it turned out to be unneccessary.
i don't like it when friends or classmates are sad.. because then you feel super sad with and for them :( even if you should be happy, somehow, it just doesn't feel right to be happy. and after taking results, i was just stoned! anyway, as expected, people dispersed after results. either to join other friends, or to get away from other people they don't want to talk to. actually i feel like i could possibly get rather teary now :( argh. nvm. so it ended up as just a few of us eating together, and then people left one by one! so decided to go home after wandering around popular for awhile, except that my mom finally returned my call and we went to meet my dad for dinner!
hmm that sums up the not-so-eventful-after-As. but i guess it's best spent as family time, because your family provides the best support.. usually. better get down to work!
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3/07/2008 11:13:00 PM
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