180 the edge
i guess it's time for a reflective post.
thankful for this half-day spent with char lu, who invited me to some christian youth group thing :) stoned together at j8, talked, had ice-cream with fries - a temptation i haven't succumbed to for very long then off to yishun and met plan. amusingly, sitting inconspicuously in the middle of some ahpeks and ah bengs along one of those ledges you always find at mrts... i wonder why i always find myself going for christian stuff, despite not being one myself, and never considering conversion since some period of time a while ago (pardon the english) where i found myself wavering in my convictions. possibly due to too much exposure. but i've fixed my beliefs and peer pressure will never lead to self-doubt again.
I'm not against any religion. I believe that we all have the right of choice, the freedom to believe in whatever we want to believe in. Is it possible to judge if one's beliefs are wrong? Perhaps the way one acts upon those beliefs may be damnable, but never the faith itself. Faith is, i feel, awe-inspiring and well, one of the fuels of life. Without faith in whatever you choose to place it in, I doubt we can carry on in life. For me, i guess i trust myself the most - refer to the previous blogpost. I prefer independence, reliance on myself - the one person who is closest to me... Maybe this is twisting it, but conscience is self-induced, even subconsciously.
Today, the youth pastor told us that conscience is one of the warning signs from God. Take that with a pinch of salt, i believe in an omniscient being, but one that is genderless... i've never really understood why God is a He, and not a She, since we differentiate so much between paternal and maternal love, as well as patriarchies and matriarchies. To me, that single being, which i call God for simplicities' sake, would be all-empowering, omnipresent, perhaps the creator, perhaps an intervenor, perhaps loving or non-judgemental, but just a presence that exists for people to place faith in, since everything has a beginning. I don't really think that God is a single being, being omnipresent and all that... It's hard to put what i believe in in words, much less describe it. Suffice to say, I describe myself either as a theist but that's not really it either, so I just fill in forms with "Free-thinker" to save all that trouble.
Theism refers to the belief that God/(s) are immanent in the world, yet transcend it. Along with the idea that God/(s) are omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent.
The main reasons i don't suscribe to christianity would probably be because i support the evolution theory, i don't see the point of Jesus, and i doubt the bible and its myriad of translations - who is right? Perhaps on a personal level, i find it hard to let go of control, and give myself up to whatever any being has in store for me. I'd much rather trod my own path, thanks.
However, i found the dance competition, games and band amusing butthe short dramatisation touched a chord within me. I think their youth pastor is a super pro charismatic guy, but he was unable to shake my beliefs, which have thus undergone a trial and come out strong, to my joy :D The dramatisation was about warning signs which the loving God gives us when we are about to go down the wrong path.
Despite the freezing cold air-con (never wear dressy-ish sandals when the weather looks bad -.-), i managed to find sources of amusement during times when i'm not supposed to be amused, but rather contemplative or prayer-ish (i can't think of the word i want at the moment). Well, turning off the house lights for privacy while asking newcomers, introduced there by friends, to raise their hands if they want to open their hearts to God, is a good move since people will feel more comfortable with anonymity. But asking them to step forth and move to the front so that he could pray for them, while requesting the lights be turned on, immediately after the first move, was rather contradictory! I was suppressing my amusement. Honestly -.- but it was another smart move, since you can't retract your commitment. This use of peer pressure certainly was quite effective. on others. I, for one, stick by my standards. Having been to quite a few christian youth day things, it's obvious that such events are ploys to attract more followers, even forcing them by asking people to fill in forms before allowing entry. Thankfully, being the suspicious person i am, i refuse to give personal particulars and they couldn't press for fear of seeming pushy with ulterior motives! xD Or maybe it's just my natural cynicism coming into play. For someone who is optimistic most of the time, i can be scarily suspicious of stuff which comes in handy at times...
Café Galilée ran out of mudpie... I'll just have to eat it tomorrow. LJS's chocolate cream pie is not bad, beats BK's sundae pie, but i think that's just because the sundae pie takes too long to melt and be eaten at the correct consistency.
I have decided not to be stupid or give in to spur of the moment desires brought about by that dastardly wickedly mischievous streak within me, which tends to manifest at the most inopportune moments, usually when the situation is best-suited to abandonment. This shall be accomplished via cooping myself up at home to study. Less computer time in the day too. Being online is hardly productive, as i've spent the last half hour reflecting and blogging this longgg post. And watching sun and rain dance on youtube xP highly amusing. Time to search for media lost and random funny videos! lol ^^"
My mom has been complaining about my skin -.- thanks alot vball and sun. Shan't wash face so soon after training... look super noob now :( what with all the white spots and pimples. this is such a girly rant. but wdv. and what's up with all the evil choreographers who differentiate male and female via super characteristic moves that are really annoying!! whatever happened to equality. If i had to dance, i'd rather do male moves. No matter what other people say, they are so much cooler please -.- hence the above decision: stay home and study. no sun. no pimples. no white spots. The smart move, yeahhh Xp
thankful for this half-day spent with char lu, who invited me to some christian youth group thing :) stoned together at j8, talked, had ice-cream with fries - a temptation i haven't succumbed to for very long then off to yishun and met plan. amusingly, sitting inconspicuously in the middle of some ahpeks and ah bengs along one of those ledges you always find at mrts... i wonder why i always find myself going for christian stuff, despite not being one myself, and never considering conversion since some period of time a while ago (pardon the english) where i found myself wavering in my convictions. possibly due to too much exposure. but i've fixed my beliefs and peer pressure will never lead to self-doubt again.
I'm not against any religion. I believe that we all have the right of choice, the freedom to believe in whatever we want to believe in. Is it possible to judge if one's beliefs are wrong? Perhaps the way one acts upon those beliefs may be damnable, but never the faith itself. Faith is, i feel, awe-inspiring and well, one of the fuels of life. Without faith in whatever you choose to place it in, I doubt we can carry on in life. For me, i guess i trust myself the most - refer to the previous blogpost. I prefer independence, reliance on myself - the one person who is closest to me... Maybe this is twisting it, but conscience is self-induced, even subconsciously.
Today, the youth pastor told us that conscience is one of the warning signs from God. Take that with a pinch of salt, i believe in an omniscient being, but one that is genderless... i've never really understood why God is a He, and not a She, since we differentiate so much between paternal and maternal love, as well as patriarchies and matriarchies. To me, that single being, which i call God for simplicities' sake, would be all-empowering, omnipresent, perhaps the creator, perhaps an intervenor, perhaps loving or non-judgemental, but just a presence that exists for people to place faith in, since everything has a beginning. I don't really think that God is a single being, being omnipresent and all that... It's hard to put what i believe in in words, much less describe it. Suffice to say, I describe myself either as a theist but that's not really it either, so I just fill in forms with "Free-thinker" to save all that trouble.
Theism refers to the belief that God/(s) are immanent in the world, yet transcend it. Along with the idea that God/(s) are omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent.
The main reasons i don't suscribe to christianity would probably be because i support the evolution theory, i don't see the point of Jesus, and i doubt the bible and its myriad of translations - who is right? Perhaps on a personal level, i find it hard to let go of control, and give myself up to whatever any being has in store for me. I'd much rather trod my own path, thanks.
However, i found the dance competition, games and band amusing butthe short dramatisation touched a chord within me. I think their youth pastor is a super pro charismatic guy, but he was unable to shake my beliefs, which have thus undergone a trial and come out strong, to my joy :D The dramatisation was about warning signs which the loving God gives us when we are about to go down the wrong path.
- Family
- Conscience
- Friends
- God's Presence
Despite the freezing cold air-con (never wear dressy-ish sandals when the weather looks bad -.-), i managed to find sources of amusement during times when i'm not supposed to be amused, but rather contemplative or prayer-ish (i can't think of the word i want at the moment). Well, turning off the house lights for privacy while asking newcomers, introduced there by friends, to raise their hands if they want to open their hearts to God, is a good move since people will feel more comfortable with anonymity. But asking them to step forth and move to the front so that he could pray for them, while requesting the lights be turned on, immediately after the first move, was rather contradictory! I was suppressing my amusement. Honestly -.- but it was another smart move, since you can't retract your commitment. This use of peer pressure certainly was quite effective. on others. I, for one, stick by my standards. Having been to quite a few christian youth day things, it's obvious that such events are ploys to attract more followers, even forcing them by asking people to fill in forms before allowing entry. Thankfully, being the suspicious person i am, i refuse to give personal particulars and they couldn't press for fear of seeming pushy with ulterior motives! xD Or maybe it's just my natural cynicism coming into play. For someone who is optimistic most of the time, i can be scarily suspicious of stuff which comes in handy at times...
Café Galilée ran out of mudpie... I'll just have to eat it tomorrow. LJS's chocolate cream pie is not bad, beats BK's sundae pie, but i think that's just because the sundae pie takes too long to melt and be eaten at the correct consistency.
I have decided not to be stupid or give in to spur of the moment desires brought about by that dastardly wickedly mischievous streak within me, which tends to manifest at the most inopportune moments, usually when the situation is best-suited to abandonment. This shall be accomplished via cooping myself up at home to study. Less computer time in the day too. Being online is hardly productive, as i've spent the last half hour reflecting and blogging this longgg post. And watching sun and rain dance on youtube xP highly amusing. Time to search for media lost and random funny videos! lol ^^"
My mom has been complaining about my skin -.- thanks alot vball and sun. Shan't wash face so soon after training... look super noob now :( what with all the white spots and pimples. this is such a girly rant. but wdv. and what's up with all the evil choreographers who differentiate male and female via super characteristic moves that are really annoying!! whatever happened to equality. If i had to dance, i'd rather do male moves. No matter what other people say, they are so much cooler please -.- hence the above decision: stay home and study. no sun. no pimples. no white spots. The smart move, yeahhh Xp
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