some luck

Well, i guess getting food poisoning was the means by which i managed to stay at home for one whole day. although, this wasn't the way i planned it. staying at home day is quite fun :) and i'm feeling better though. slept 10+ hours, what a happy piggy. hahaa

Slept alot and woke up at 12 to watch the match... Liverpool lost yesterday to Arsenal 3-0, talk about good timing. The moment i turned on the tv, arsenal scored one -.- what a blow on my already woozy mind so i watched on till halftime then returned to the comp to continue chatting... when i next got up to return to the tv, guess what happened again. Another arsenal goal. how predictable. life just wasn't going my way so i turned off the tv and went back to sleep before i got dealt another blow. But pool still rox and arsenal was just lucky. yeah obviously.

Got woken up at 0730 by jinrou calling and asking if i was going ubin. calling my house. -.- i'm sure i can get to tampines by 0730 if i'm still at home then. oh great, my hands are trembling while typing this. but at least 1-2 days of bread and water has removed some of the extra padding i had around my invisible abmuscles. feeling weak, and i hate that feeling... of inadequacy. haha sigh and m1 hates me, i'm quite sure of that. coz some people's smses only reach me hours later. Well i guess the lucky thing about not going ubin, is that the two people i wanted to be with didn't go too...school stuff and not feeling well. selfish i know, but everybody thinks like this sometimes?

Just planned tw dorm reunion outing on monday. catch up with 3 people i spend one whole month living with. :) w00t. i hope training is in the morning otherwise i'll just pon xD yayy wonder what we will be doing.

Looping Ashley Parker Angel's Along The Way. love that song.

Firefly, can I have a light?
It's so dark out here,
My shadow looked me in the eye,
like I was staring in the mirror.
Everything became so clear,
in the middle of nowhere.

I walk along the boulevard,
My feet don't touch the ground,
Scratch my name on concrete stars,
I'm never coming down.
Feels so good to disappear,
in the middle of nowhere.

Along the way,
That's where I'm supposed to be.
Along the way,
In the spaces in between.
I find my place in the middle of tomorrow and yesterday,
If you're going there, look for me along the way.

Taxi driver, can I hitch a ride?
Anywhere but home.
I'm looking for an alibi,
a reason to stay gone.
I can't hear the voices say "you're in the middle of nowhere"

Along the way,
That's where I'm supposed to be.
Along the way,
In the spaces in between.
I find my place in the middle of tomorrow and yesterday,
If you're going there, look for me along the way.

It's who I am, it's how you'll be,
It's where we run.
Letting go of everything is the hardest part when you start along the way.

Along the way,
That's where I'm supposed to be.
Along the way,
In the spaces in between.
I find my place in the middle of tomorrow and yesterday,
If you're going there, look for me along the way.

there was quite some stuff i wanted to write. my best friend thinks i need a best friend in class to take care of me -.- like i need taking care of. and it's impossible to just find a best friend. flight tmr i hope i can make it and don't faint on the plane.

Rainy season's here. i hope this doesn't delay the flying course schedule and end up clashing with A levels. that would be totally screwed up. like everything seems to be now.

Need to start studying soon. but i'm feeling like i can't do anything now. wooziness is striking and my hands are trembling even more. at least this day hasn't been as bad as it could have been, so far. So not in an optimistic mood i guess.

Was blogsurfing randomly. Reading about other people you don't know nuts about is quite interesting. I think we all have voyeuristic tendencies :x

A friend's blog says that the difference between "love-like" and "like being with you like" to quote directly, is the conviction. I agree, in the sense that we are too young to really commit to anything... okay fine, age is not the issue. but rather the belief that you are right for each other, can see yourselves growing old together. that's rather idealistic and traditional i guess. but as aforementioned, if you have no idea what you want, don't go looking for it. besides, it will come with time, and arrive au naturalement. committing yourself is a big deal and feeling trepidation is definitely normal. But when the time comes, and i finally find that someone in the future, will i have the courage to move? I envy people who dare to speak what they feel, dare to love and give, even though they know they may get rejected and hurt. "And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more." a quote off another friend's blog, someone with courage :) i guess that's a good philosophy to have.

would like to claim that i need no one but that would be untrue. kudos to my family and all friends who've been there for me at one time or another :) sometimes you do need people to lean on, maybe you're looking for that one particular shoulder you can lean on forever, but in the meantime, family and good friends are the best thing to have at this age, imho. nothing else. x) but i know that if and when it comes, there will be nothing to stop it and nothing you will want to do to stop it. For now, i'll just enjoy the simplicity of life. and keep on smiling :)