farewell assembly

it's annoying when people are childish, and i know i'm being childish by being annoyed even though i say, "whatever, i should not be annoyed so i'm like don't care", and sort of lowering myself to that level even though i'm attempting not to.

it's kind of disappointing that people are flawed? yes, me included. although if everyone were perfect, life would be kind of boring. but why can't people see that everyone is flawed! and that it's so not worth it, okay i feel hypocritical as i'm typing this so i guess this reasoning it out is resolving my issues with the world today for the moment. because, i was fine with it until today! maybe some days your tolerance levels are much lower than usual.

it's storming outside, and i felt like walking in the rain on the way home because the big drops started plopping down as i was crossing the road! but logic and brain took over spontaneity and heart, even though i was feeling kind of sian, there's nothing practical to be gained from walking under torrents of rain, and feeling all your angst and whatever being washed away, only to incapacitate yourself and feel even worse later.

i don't like being caught in the middle. and i when i say i don't like someone, it only lasts for the while that i'm feeling annoyed. after that, it'll be fine. anyway, the kind of people i don't like most are people i can't trust not to stab me in the back, you can stab me or betray me when i'm looking though. lol, i'll just not like you for a long while. but the "innocent until proven guilty" clause applies in this case, so i trust you until you betray me and i find out, and i weigh the betrayal. then sayonara! good bye my "friend".
what an angsty paragraph!

so much for productive mugging today! i think i'll go take a nap, then wake up and bathe and do work.