we made plans to be unbreakable

unfortunately, things don't always go as planned.

i didn't cry. hurray. neither did i play.

stop and go.

it's time to focus now.

the list goes on and on

it's actually easier when you have something to blame for losses, bad feelings and all that depression and low crap, like in individual sports you blame yourself and do all the associated stuff with self blame. but in team sports, everyone's doing the best they can under the circumstances and well, you can call it warped standards or whatever, there's seriously nothing you can do but get over it and aim to improve yourself or just, get over it.

the feeling of losing: i think i haven't felt it this badly since j1, especially since in individual sports, you just whack yourself black-and-blue over any lost match. but here, there's so many more conditions to consider, so many more factors to put in. it's harder, the win is more fulfilling because you have people to share it with, likewise, the loss is equally confusing and hard because sadness and lowness radiates and multiplies together.

whatever. i'm getting over it.

<3 my team