i realised that it's unfair when you have expectations of people, because your expectations are based on your perspectives of them, how you think they are like, and what you want them to be instead of who they really are! it's best not to have expectations because you and everyone else ends up worse off somehow.. random ponderings! it's best to just have expectations over things that you can control, like yourself :D
anyway, woah, the new year's coming in 2-3 days.. that's quite exciting! despite the fact that i've seen 17 new years coming and going, every year brings new surprises or shocks, gains or losses, so that's cool. as always, we got to expect the unexpected (which is rather contradictory but nevermind, it's in the spirit of things), prepare for the worst, and hope for the best! (:
i've finally started uk applications and job hunting.. and i guess i'm just going to do whatever i said above with regards to that! honestly, i don't know whether i regret my blunder with the sms, it's so hard to decide whether i want to continue flying as my life, my career.. especially since flight schedules seem really out of your hands kind of thing. perhaps i'm better off a civilian! if it's something you'll look back on and forever wonder whether you could have been that or done that.. i have no idea! i feel confused.. and it's something nagging at me especially since the stupid website hasn't closed the applications link, i feel like it's prompting me to just send in the stupid documents and calling them to chase! why on earth i still go there i have no idea.. oh for the dms. by the way, this is one of the times i really feel like throwing my hands up, running to the end of the island and stand on the beach to scream! and i've never felt like doing that before.
today's mentoring session with 157 was quite fun and i felt like i helped? but forgot to give them contact to ask if need.. anyway, it didn't remind me of how i was at the beginning of the course though, guess i was a lot more reticent then :P and independent.. i don't remember asking any questions! just mugged whatever there was and asked when i really couldn't stand it throughout the course otherwise find out from course mates or the internet.. i keep meeting random people i am somehow related to! today i met a NUS high tuition mate who was in 157. yesterday i met an RJ senior who knows my squash senior? anyway this senior happened to be the guy i was supposed to have interview with at the recruitment agency! so it was quite amusing. but i really don't like the shoes i wore there, they have blistered my heels one time too many! i'm so going to throw them away once i find good replacements.
thursday was chiong through final theory lesson until late day! was it? yeah i think it was :P friday was piano, interview, and get bored until tv day. i think i'm rotting! come here now job!
i'm suffering from withdrawal! this always happens at the end of a school! but we all got to go through this phase and move on.
i really want to start driving but the instructor is in malaysia and will only be back on monday!! I want. I want. I want. but not everything's about me ):
been eating alot. i feel fat. kill me now! i'm weird (:
anyway, woah, the new year's coming in 2-3 days.. that's quite exciting! despite the fact that i've seen 17 new years coming and going, every year brings new surprises or shocks, gains or losses, so that's cool. as always, we got to expect the unexpected (which is rather contradictory but nevermind, it's in the spirit of things), prepare for the worst, and hope for the best! (:
i've finally started uk applications and job hunting.. and i guess i'm just going to do whatever i said above with regards to that! honestly, i don't know whether i regret my blunder with the sms, it's so hard to decide whether i want to continue flying as my life, my career.. especially since flight schedules seem really out of your hands kind of thing. perhaps i'm better off a civilian! if it's something you'll look back on and forever wonder whether you could have been that or done that.. i have no idea! i feel confused.. and it's something nagging at me especially since the stupid website hasn't closed the applications link, i feel like it's prompting me to just send in the stupid documents and calling them to chase! why on earth i still go there i have no idea.. oh for the dms. by the way, this is one of the times i really feel like throwing my hands up, running to the end of the island and stand on the beach to scream! and i've never felt like doing that before.
today's mentoring session with 157 was quite fun and i felt like i helped? but forgot to give them contact to ask if need.. anyway, it didn't remind me of how i was at the beginning of the course though, guess i was a lot more reticent then :P and independent.. i don't remember asking any questions! just mugged whatever there was and asked when i really couldn't stand it throughout the course otherwise find out from course mates or the internet.. i keep meeting random people i am somehow related to! today i met a NUS high tuition mate who was in 157. yesterday i met an RJ senior who knows my squash senior? anyway this senior happened to be the guy i was supposed to have interview with at the recruitment agency! so it was quite amusing. but i really don't like the shoes i wore there, they have blistered my heels one time too many! i'm so going to throw them away once i find good replacements.
thursday was chiong through final theory lesson until late day! was it? yeah i think it was :P friday was piano, interview, and get bored until tv day. i think i'm rotting! come here now job!
i'm suffering from withdrawal! this always happens at the end of a school! but we all got to go through this phase and move on.
i really want to start driving but the instructor is in malaysia and will only be back on monday!! I want. I want. I want. but not everything's about me ):
been eating alot. i feel fat. kill me now! i'm weird (:
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12/29/2007 09:39:00 PM
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