the end of another month

i'm still awake again! and not being productive so i find myself here once more after a session of blog-surfing, during which i felt really guilty for not (a) being asleep or (b) working... i choose (a)! after this is done.

i guess this week's been quite emo-angsty for me. and i'm not really sure why, although it was largely about gradnight arrangements but i'm glad that's settled! what really irks me now is the registration stuff and i'm going to foist all that admin work onto someone else :P i don't like having a short fuse because i feel bad after i get all angsty at people.. which i shouldn't do.. even though i know i'll feel awful, sometimes it just comes out! hence the heart-ripping fiasco? perhaps.

and in every big group of people, there will always be individual idiosyncrasies.. skeletons jumping out of your closet when you open the door to rummage for a new shirt to show the world?? you're not alone.

now to the point of this post, while surfing i stumbled across a j1 girl's blog.. she had been in syfc but well, got kicked out =( which is quite sad for the future PPL-ers coz she's chio =) joking! (although it's true) ahh, and i started thinking about what it'd feel like not to be able to fly again...

EXTRACT:
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
hahaa even though it's stressful, flying is just <3
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
and the high you get from it
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
and the feeling you get just thinking about it
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
and the way thinking about flying can calm anything inside hahahaa
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
yayyyy <3

AND THEN:
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
hahaha omg i can imagine living without flying
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
coz it'll always be a part of me
cereal (ap) | fly and fight | A ∞ | chew on it 070807 says:
ok actually i can't really... nooooooooo :S


okay, i was just lazy to retype it out =) but the point's there. i'm just afraid to commit, that i won't be able to meet the demands of being rsaf, and what if it took up so much of me that all the other things i want to do with my life get engulfed by work! this is really something i need to sit down and think about after As... hopefully scholarship applications will still be open after As. because i don't want to think about it now.

everyone needs someone(s).? how random. lol!

oh went to 'support' sva presentation today at wlb. turned up late though :S due to mix-up in locations, went to the wrong floor, luckily it only has 4 floors! and i wondered at the differences between procrastination and not, and how the rewards don't always justify the quantity of time spent on something? actually i'm thinking about studying time now, like full concentration and short time vs long time. incoherent. i think that's probably because it's past 3 now.. anyway the presentation was quite entertaining.. gj! and gnite.